Writers Block

Writers Block

I haven’t wrote a decent poem in 2 years. That’s real writers block. After I had my daughter I know for a fact my writers voice changed and instead of forcing myself to write or create I just chilled all the way out but would still feel instances of down emotions about not writing. I’m finally starting to feel little instances of words forming in my thoughts that string together into poetry. I haven’t written anything down. Nothing’s solid. But I can feel creativity and inspiration and my voice finally starting to creep back in. And it’s a good feeling. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to acknowledge it out of fear that it might go away. It was a tightly lodged feeling that I can feel deeply in my heart. But it’s here and I’m thinking (hoping) it’ll stay awhile. And something solid will come from it.

Until then here’s a lil sample of the poetry I used to write. Cause what I know will come from me now won’t exactly be the same.

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Strawberry Playlist

Strawberry Playlist

Hey!

Here’s June’s playlist which is a very sexual one when I made it i must’ve been in a mood. Also I named the playlist Strawberry cause my birthday is the 17th and it’s the strawberry full moon. But I had fun with this playlist and even have a lil visual I’ll be posting tomorrow for it.

Here’s the link.

Strawberry 🍓

Top 5 Lesser Known Artists

Top 5 Lesser Known Artists

At the moment. I would consider underground artists as anyone who isn’t getting regular play on the radio (but honestly I don’t even listen to the radio that much so don’t quote me). So, lately I’ve been real into this type of r&b bad girl vibe feel like Summer Walker (she’s not on this list I don’t really consider her underground). But girls who sing about sex, drugs and whatever else and not just love. I don’t know being in my late 20’s and going through romantic relationships that whole love me and I can’t live without you thing doesn’t appeal to me. But maybe I’m just growing through a phase or realizing I don’t really need a man – probably a little bit of both. The other half of this list is my love for reggae type of music with 2 artists from Nigeria with that whole tropical vibe going on. These are the artists I’m digging right now and the songs I feel like you need to be familiar with from them.

  1. Iamddb: I’ve recently become obsessed with this singer and I love her smooth soulful voice but I love it more that she’s not singing about needing a mans love. She makes songs that give you confidence and hype you up. She calls her sound a fusion of trap and jazz. Listen to: shade, xox & urban jazz live.
  1. Ojerime: bad girl r&b tracks. Like late 90s early 2000s bad girl r&b vibes. Reminds me a little bit of Aaliyah. Just really in love with her sound. I like love songs that are a lil dirty. A lil gritty and that’s what you get with this artist. Listen to: turn you off, 56 plate corsa & handle.
  1. Santi: this Nigerian artist has all these summery chill vibes that I love. Roll your hips music. And honestly every time I hear a track it puts me in a better mood and I just want to get up and dance the bs away. Listen to: sparky, rapid fire, freaky. Also check out his new album that’s being released on May 17th.
  1. Dizzy Fae: She’s like electric pop/r&b. Idk but her sound is fun it’s experimental and different. And her raspy high voice over upbeat sounds is all I need on a hot humid summery afternoon. Her sound kind of reminds me of a soft 80s electric feel. Listen to: lifestyle, baby pillz, & indica.
  1. Odunsi: I’ve had one of his songs on a monthly playlist and have been infatuated with his music ever since. He’s another Nigerian artist and is apart of the alte scene out there which is for the youth doing new bold things in music and fashion. His sound is really a whole vibe and is perfect for relaxed chill summer nights. Listen to: tipsy, rare, & star signs.

Also here’s a little playlist with all the suggested songs from these artists.

Top 5

Highlight: Harmony Holiday

Highlight: Harmony Holiday

Starting a series of posts where I highlight my favorite artists cause why not. Art is a big part of my life from poets, writers, music video producers, photographers, painters, music artists and more. I really want to just highlight some of the ones I think are pushing boundaries and make me feel and think.

First up is this amazing poet I found on poetry foundation.com (one of my favorite sites tbh) named Harmony Holiday. I’m going to link my favorite poems of hers in this post and also talk about some of my favorite lines and word mashups that she effortlessly delivers.

I know myself. Or so I chant in the mirror right around discovering that trap music is all the new negro spiritual / righteous delirium try to defund the clown in the en in negro say it a little less enter the New Yorker in Desdemona’s scarf and be this generative productive whistle blower for radicals/

This is an excerpt from Holiday’s Dear Babylon, that first line is really what stands out to me. Holiday writes these poems that themselves seem like rap lyrics the way they run on – the paragraphed structure of the poem the spaces the use of words that normally don’t fit together. Jumping from one subject to the next never knowing the next move or where she is going and being in awe of the truth and the hardness the strength in the words.

The mention of Desdemona from Othello. It’s just so effortless but calculated the movement from line to line.

From her poem Do you find it hard to live?

Thank yourself for making it for being present for the cold ache you sit with and rock into situations for the way you exploded in nuclear winter and thought you had dreamed it and made a new world bent as your denial reached forth to caress it all and it shocked your fingertips this is the bravest numbness.

This spoke to me in volumes it’s almost like everything I’ve been feeling put into words. It’s hard out here being soft around people who could careless about you- about black bodies about black women. The bravest numbness is living.

What I get from holiday is she’s cultured. She knows her stuff. She’s lived through some stuff too. She’s able to use pop culture and sport references and book references and tv references and it all works well together. She knows the struggle artists fight between feeling too much of everything but she’s able to put it into words and weave them through subjects.

Poems that I loved by Holiday are here:

Coin Coin, Run

Eurydice, Run

She has a book of poems coming out this year tilted M a a f A so if you like any of her poems check this book out and her other books she’s published.

January Playlist

January Playlist

It’s 2019 you guys and I always get all psyched at the start of a year. A lot of the songs on this playlist are emotionally charged. I actually really like music that has a lot of emotion but being such an emotional person hip hop is like the much needed distraction I need from my feels and thoughts. But it’s nice. It’s reflective which I think is needed at the end/beginning of a new year.

I had a new idea for the direction I want to take this blog back in December. I do want to continue to write about motherhood and things pertaining to it. However, I want to write less about spiritual things just cause I feel like I’ve been really wrapped up in my spirituality and defining it for the last couple of years and in some ways I feel a little disappointed by current events in my life and need to take a step back and reevaluate my spirituality.

So, this blog is about to turn to some of my other interests mainly music, art (in all forms TV, film, writing, painting, album reviews, movie reviews, restaurant reviews) and social issues that I’m very passionate about. There are going to be reviews on art shows and gallery openings going on in Atlanta. Part of this is to work on one of my goals which is my social life. As a mom I don’t have a huge social life and I want to get out more and meet more people and extend my tribe. So, the content might be changing a little but I hope you all will like the change.

I hope ya’ll like this new playlist and I hope everyone is planning out their goals and making changes to live the life they really want to love.

January Playlist

Art work from one of my favorites @serpentfire on Instagram.